Because I don't feel like doing actual work...

I'm at work again, just passing the time and yet wishing that I could get up the motivation to get some things accomplished. I don't know why the last few weeks have been so hard, but I just can't get going. I need to finish applying for grad school so that I can start solidifying some plans for my "future"...yikes.

One more semester left. Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to make it, but I know that I will eventually. I just have to keep my head on school and not up in the clouds where it's been chillin' for awhile. Focus. Maybe.

A lot of things have changed for me this semester. It seems as though I've left the gay world and entered back into the straight one...which has been a major change. It's kind of easy to fall into weird stereotypical roles, and I'm trying very hard not to be overcome by them. Good thing I'm not much of a cook. I do miss going out with the gays...but it's mixed company these days and I don't want to make any of my friends feel uncomfortable. Anyway, she told me that I didn't have time for anyone and she did...so I guess she wins. I still see Clark sometimes and Alyssa every once in awhile, though, and that always makes my day a little brighter. If only there were more hours in a day...

I have high hopes for the next chapter, whenever it chooses to start. This one has been a little shaky, with quitting smoking, losing Grandma, and finding Joe. A lot of ups and downs, and I've definitely had moments of weakness. Those won't last forever, though, and I've learned to be patient and wait for the bumps to even out. They always do, eventually. It has been a long time since I've felt like I've been home, or had one, but I've realized that home doesn't have to be a place. It can be the people in your life who hold you steady when you feel like the entire world is lost in motion. I've got a couple of those people, and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

The Wonderful El

So, I'm almost ashamed at how excited I was about this. Tasha and Alice, please be together forever.

Also, Tasha, you run like a girl. You should work on that, my love.

Reason #3 Why I should drop out of school

This is about how much I have in my bank account. Please, tell me why I agreed to pay a ridiculous amount of money to stay up all night studying, get up too late to drink any coffee, deal with all of the people who walk too slow and are constantly in my way, AND live off of ramen noodles and peanut butter. It almost seems like a good deal, except not.

Reason #2 Why I should drop out of school

I don't even remember what an A+ looks like. It's kind of like finding a hot girl that doesn't come with a lot of drama. I know they're out there, I've just never seen one...

Reason #1 Why I should drop out of school

I have almost fallen on the ice three times today. Three! My personal health is in danger, and I don't feel that my Abnormal Psych class is worth a broken leg. Winter, you can suck it, because I quit you. Don't bother calling and come and get your toothbrush, because I'm done.

Oh, dear, John

So, in case you didn't know, and I'm assuming that you don't, I'm a little bit in love with John Mayer. And that's something special, because I don't say that about many boys :/ Welllll, my cousin sent me these pictures of him not to long ago. And I'm still laughing.

John, thank you for making my day. Never again, please.




But don't worry, there are plenty of sexy-guitar-guy pictures to go around. And yes, I probably have all of them.

Good Morning, Sunshine.

Because she's the cutest thing. Ever.

Ingrid Michaelson with "The Way I Am"